This year has not been too good for us as a family. There have been many stresses and an absolute lack of routine and balance. After 8 months of this it is safe to say I’m nearing the end of my tether. It’s been no fun having illness after illness, dealing with the aftermath of a bully and trying to get what my children deserve. There have just been barriers everywhere we have been. Places were there should not be barriers. People failing us when they should be protecting us. It’s going to be a long hard battle that I am determined to keep fighting irrespective of the tactics people are using to try to put me off.
We are at the point that regardless of the issues going on in our lives, many of which are out of my control we need to get some routine and balance back in to our lives. This month my main goal is to do just that; reintroduce routine and balance.
The big question is, how do I bring routine and balance in to our lives? I am going in to a fibromyalgia flare. It’s quite expected after all the stresses that have been going on. I can’t do things right now that I need to do but to do this things I need to relax and sleep. It’s hard to relax when there are things stressing you that are out of your control yet have such an impact on you and your family. Sleep is hard as I experiencing considerable pain which makes getting quality sleep very difficult.
Having chronic illnesses especially if they are auto ammune illnesses is so draining both physically and emotionally. But I need to get some routine and balance back in my life as presently it’s all work, running around trying to sort medical issues and house stuff. All things that are causing me stress right now meaning there is no routine or balance.
I guess it’s swings and round abouts. I need energy to tackle the issues to give long term energy and freedom from the stress.
This month sees a new chapter where I start to put the wrongs right. I know some people are not going to like that that but it’s happening. It will take me longer than it should but I’m going to tackle all the issues one by one. Slowly but surely.
This parenting lark is hard enough without having to do it all on your own and not feeling well.
A little help when asked for would be nice, but too often this doesn’t happen. I sick of being made to feel in the wrong for wanting things to be good for my children and having to fight for every single thing and still getting nowhere.
I question why I try as it gets me nowhere. Do you ever feel isolated but unable to get help desire asking and asking?